It sucks to live in my mind
To be the one who creates all the negativity in my space
To sit with my thoughts and feelings, wishing it would all just stop by
Wishing I would just stop
And smell the roses
And see myself as a wonderful human being
Who tries their best
And makes mistakes
It’s hard to live in my mind
When the things I can’t talk about fill the space
When all I feel is shame
That I’m never the best
Never good enough
Never worth anyone’s time
Life is intolerable in my eyes
The days go by
Never stops
But I don’t want to die
The small beauties of life makes it somewhat easier
But yet I can never find
Something that makes me special
Worth it
Good enough
Just
Want
To
Cry.

-Anonymous