TRIGGER WARNING: Mention of self harm

It's like a cycle a routine I couldn't break out of I couldn't break free of. Feeling like I wasn't enough, feeling like I wasn't pretty enough, feeling like I didn't have a right to live feeling unworthy. So I started off with one slit a day and with each slit i'd feel at ease, I'd feel free so I'd continue adding slits on my writs through out the day. I got addicted to something that I knew was bad for me something that could have killed me but I couldn't stop, it made me feel so much love, at least that's what I told myself. I made myself believe that I was doing it for a good cost that doing it made me feel loved made me feel accepted made me feel at peace made me feel free like I was in my own world but I was only fooling myself. As the days go by the deeper they'd get the taller they'd get sitting there watching the blood run down my wrist effortlessly made me feel so at ease it made me happy I found peace in the sight of my blood running down my hand just how can I stop?
Should I just end my life now or continue this cycle?
I thank God for favouring me for helping me and I pray that you will pray and ask him for help.

-Anonymous