Speaking up with Sage

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I am the backup!!!

I CAN'T AFFORD TO FAIL; I DON’T HAVE A BACKUP, I AM THE BACKUP.
I've seen a lot of people always talk about the first child, and no one talks about the last child that gets pressured because everyone before them failed the whole family. And as the last child, I found myself thurst into the role of a reluctant breadwinner. I feel the Weight of the expectations placed on my shoulders, carrying a course I never truly desired. Each day, the struggle to find motivation becomes more daunting, as the fear of failure looms over me like a constant shadow.
The mantra that guided me through these challenging years became my lifeline. "I can't afford to fail; I don't have a backup, I am the backup". These words weren’t just motto, they were a rallying cry that echoed through my every endeavor. I learned to be strong not because I want to but because I had to. The realization that I am my own backup plan intensifies the pressure, making every decision a battleground where I fight not only for myself but for the stability of my family. This wasn’t just words; it became my guide, a steady guide in a sky full of uncertainties. Every choice, every step forward, carried the weight of knowing that I can't afford to Fail.

-Anonymous