That icebreaker in class that goes
“If you could talk to one person dead or alive; who would it be?”
I would say, my dad.
I would ask him how he’s doing
If he’s finally out of pain and no longer suffering
I would ask for his advice
I would ask if it would be okay for mummy to walk me down the aisle
I would tell him that I love him one last time
that his family is going to be okay
I would tell him that I fucking hate cancer
I would tell him don’t worry about mummy, we got her
I would ask him who I should support when lewis hamilton stops driving
and why in the world do you own so many shoes
I would ask him how he became best friends with just about everyone and made everyone around him feel important
I would tell him that I placed in the top 20 in jamaica for three subjects
I would tell him that Nate is the biggest drama student and mash up the place with his performance
I would tell him that my college advisor says we could possibly look at the colleges he always spoke about
I would ask him to hug me one last time
to send me a voice recording so I could listen to it over and over
I would ask him to draw me something so I can get it tattooed
I would tell him that Nate is learning so much about him and he misses his dad
I would tell him that I miss him so much it hurts
I would tell him that we’re going to be okay
I would tell him that mummy is the most amazing single parent that he could’ve left us with
I would tell him that I’ll buy a fast car one day and press gas just for him
That I’ll buy a tumi bag and wear it as good as him
That I’ll buy funky glasses but will never be able to pull them off like he did
I would tell him that I love him more than he can imagine
So if that icebreaker comes up
The person I want to talk to is my dad

-Sage