My Mind

I continue to act as if I'm not hurt when I see her with him
But it cripples my heart..
I wanna hold her and call her mine
But I don't know if she'll accept me
And I don't know where to start
My previous person and I were in love
So I thought
But now I'm on a different adventure
hell I'm also into the other gender...

I guess love was never meant for a girl like me
One who has a big heart
And a childhood filled with trauma
How can my heart and mind heal
How do I know if when I meet someone
Our connection is real

I get so tired that depression begins to grow inside me
And slowly begins to take my smile and consume me piece by piece
I just want to have the feeling of never being alone
And be with someone have my mind blown

I hope my mental state gets better
And I can smile more
and I hope I'll eventually find someone I’ll adore

-Anonymous