Self sabotage

This word is beyond me
I kinda love me
But not truly
If I am not am expert at the moment I quit
If I do feel like a bother I resist
Too perfect to make friends
Too "judgy" to make ammends
Too precise to make a mistake
And as a result their love they forsake
Am I too much?
Am I too tough?
I need to know
Am I the problem
Is it really me?
When she said that she has a problem with me
Was that valid? Can you see?
If I've been the problem this whole time I am the villain
I admit it, it's me.

-Anonymous