Weirdo

TRIGGER WARNING: Mention of self harm

It’s especially hard to get help when it gets especially ugly. The outward spiralling ugly. The patterns of abnormal behaviour ugly. The uncontrollable crying ugly. The panic and anxiety attacks ugly. The barely functioning ugly. The cuts and scabs ugly. “Weirdo.” “Scary.” “Strange.” “Insane.” Getting avoided, made fun of, talked about. But never talked to in the way needed the most: kindly. And my mental health becomes ‘drama’ or something to talk about for entertainment instead of something that’s truly cared about. And it just gets worse and worse and I can’t stop myself from putting it against my arm.

-Anonymous